As many of you know if you are following me on Facebook, I’m in the hospital right now with an acute ulcerative colitis attack. It’s the first one I have ever had of this magnitude. It totally surprised me and in the process of a month, completely took me out. This Saturday I realized that I had to get myself to an ER or I was going to die from either dehydration or starvation, whichever one showed up first.
Now that I’m here, I’m realizing that I was in so much pain that I couldn’t actually get myself to eat. So I’m having to do something extremely out of character: allow all the feeling in my body to be medicated flat so that I can get some food in me without clenching up into a little frightened, traumatized ball. Being an extreme yogi/spiritual warrior type, this is about the furthest thing from my normal medical choices that I can possibly imagine. But if I don’t find a way to get past the unpleasantness, I won’t get past this at all.
And while I am in my hospital bed, I can see the number of requests on FB for everyone to write letters to KOMEN FOR THE CURE to reinstate their funding for the grants at Planned Parenthood. No one likes this aspect of KOMEN being brought out into the light. Which, to me, seems a little silly – harping as we do at TCS that all this Pink Stinks to begin with… Whether or not it’s pretending to be liberal or conservative is beyond the point now.
But this is where things get interesting – WHY do we want to hang onto this Pink WorldView so badly?
Because it’s hopeful. It gives those who are suffering, and those who are suffering through them a feeling that they can actually do something.
Because the truth IS that horrible. Breast cancer IS that horrible. And we want to look at anything else in order to protect ourselves from the horrible, illogical, violent way it tears lives and bodies apart.
But, we can’t afford to look away any longer.
Unlike my current drugged up state, when it comes to KOMEN, I am advocating for a full 100% wakeup call. It’s time to rip the band-aid off and take a new unpleasant look at this relentlessly unpleasant subject, and give up our desire for a better t-shirt design that will make us all feel better.
It’s time for truth no matter how unpleasant. Because that – AND ONLY THAT – will begin to set us free.